It was a year ago today that I met my you for the first time. The last nine months we had been through so much together with my HG that I couldn’t wait to see those pretty blue eyes (I always knew you would have my eyes because I gave them to your big brother too!), those little fingers and tiny toes. I had been dreaming of meeting you and I know that is the only way I made it that far.
When Mommy was 36 weeks I started feeling a little light-headed sometimes and felt my heart go pitter patter too often. After talking to our doctor he sent me to another doctor to check out my heart. It seems as if you were running out of room and pushing up on my heart and twisting it backwards. It was okay though because they gave me some medicine and made me better. The next week my heart spells were coming back so they gave us some more medication! By 38 weeks they had gotten much worse and Mommy, Daddy and our doctors decided it would be best if you came out to meet us. So on Saturday night Jake went to Ahma and Papa’s for a sleepover and Daddy and I settled into our room at the hospital.
Once we were at the hospital they gave Mommy some medicine to get us ready for the next morning. Daddy and I tried to sleep but I was too excited and anxious. They woke us up at 6:30 so I could take a shower and brush my teeth (it was the first time in weeks Mommy didn’t get sick while I brushed my teeth…I knew it was a good sign!) By 7:30 they gave me some medicine called Pitocin to wake you up and tell you it is time to come out. The entire morning Daddy and I sat around in our room talking, watching tv and taking little cat naps to get ready.
By lunch time they decided that it was time to break my water so that we could get things moving along. I asked if I could have some medicine called an epidural to help with the pain of the contractions. I knew that right after they broke my water with Jake he was ready to come out and I wanted to be ready for those crazy contractions. So after they broke my water a nice man came up to see me who struggled to get Mommy’s medicine right. After 5 times of poking me he thought he had finally got it right and told me it should start working soon. Since everyone figured it would be awhile Daddy decided to go get something to eat in the cafeteria and Ahma stayed with us in the room.
Within a couple of minutes I felt my body starting to push…but the nurses said that couldn’t be right because they had just checked me and I was only at 8cm and I needed to get to 10 before you could come. After telling them all very loudly I wasn’t trying to push but my body was doing it anyways they checked me and believe it or not we were already to 10cm! It was time to push! All of the nurses and our doctor came running in and they started breaking down the bed to get ready for you. When Dr. Rush asked who was going to cut the cord I told him Daddy was. Then she says “Where is Jeremy?” Well after I became a little panicked Ahma said “It’s okay he just went to the bathroom let me go get him.” Ahma was gone for a little bit longer than it takes to go to the potty so I knew Daddy was on his way to get a snack but no worries they both came running in right in time to start pushing. I was so ready to meet you that it only took Mommy three big pushes until you came into the world! It wasn’t until after our doctor went to give Mommy a couple of stitches that we realized that the medicine never started working and I had you without any pain medication! Whew that wasn’t as hard as I thought it would have been!
The second I heard your little voice cry out I was so overwhelmed! Of course I first asked to make sure you were still a girl because I had had several dreams that you were a boy after you didn’t want to cooperate at your ultrasound. After they assured me you were a sweet, beautiful little girl they wiped you off checked you out real quick and then placed you on my chest. It all felt like a dream. I dream that I never wanted to wake up from. You were here. My baby girl you were here and you had those beautiful blue eyes, ten little fingers and ten tiny toes. After being so sick for so long I was worried that something was going to be wrong, but you were perfect. You were perfect in every way. They even gave you a healthy score of 9 out of 10 right after you were born.
You were a little cold so they let you snuggle up on Mommy’s chest so I could warm you up. It was the most amazing feeling in the entire world. We even got to nurse a little bit too. Soon the rest of your family came in to see you. As soon as your Papa, Auntie and Uncle Kevin came in to see you Daddy left to get Mommy some lunch. I proudly told him that I was STARVING and I wanted some lunch. Because he is the best Daddy in the entire world he came back to my room with a Supreme Dinner from Bojangles and I ate EVERY LAST BITE…without getting sick!
Once your brother was able to come in to see you, well I can’t even put into words how it felt to see you two together. It was so amazing to have both of my babies next to me at the same time. He was so excited to meet you. Jakie loves you so much and is always going to protect you and love you no matter what. He couldn’t stop smiling when he held you for the first time, although he did think that the smell of the hospital laundry detergent was stinky. It was at that moment that I finally felt like our family was complete. You, Jake, Daddy and I are the perfect little family and I wouldn’t change a thing.
This last year has been interesting to say the least. You are a little sassy replica of your Momma although none of us doubted for a minute that you would probably have my personality. You have brought so many smiles and so many tears of joy over the past year that I can hardly wait to watch you grow up. Emma Grace, Mommy loves you and I always will. So remember even when you are a teenager and can’t stand me…remember that I loved you first. Remember that Daddy, Jake and I will always be here for you. You have the most amazing family and I can’t wait to see the woman you will become. Remember that nothing is ever as life ending as you think it is, whether it is being out of Cheerios or some looser guy who isn’t good enough for you anyways. Remember that you are always beautiful no matter what you wear or how you fix your hair. Remember that the only boys you will ever need are your Daddy, Jakie, Papa, Kevin and Kyson. I can’t wait to see you walk, to see you go to Kindergarden, learn how to drive a car (manual of course that is how all the Foster girls do it), go on your first date (Daddy has his shotgun ready), go to prom and then graduate from high school and college. I’m going to stop there because you are too young for me to be thinking past that and I’ve already got enough tears right now. I love you baby girl!
Happy 1st Birthday Emma Grace!
Love you,
Momma
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